natamaan ako sa sinabi ni Christian sa Mara Clara. why oh why man natimingan to? XD

i cannot quote what he said but i can give you the thought. and i'm sharing this because this is the way i am, i express myself kahit alam kong walang magbasa or something. basta, i could air these out :))

it's like, it's the drama of my life now. mahal kita pero hindi ko ipagpipilitan ang sarili ko sa iyo. sana sa paglayo ko, maging masaya ka na. kasi ayokong nahihirapan ka nang dahil sa akin. kung kailangan kong lumayo, gagawin ko...kasi gusto ko lang naman maging masaya ka...kahit ako ang sobrang masaktan, okay lang..basta masaya ka.

putlig tiil. grabe ka KORNI noh? sorry, but that's me. and that's the drama of my life now. but yknow, i don't share this to anybody really. i don't want them to look at me and pity me..or look at him and think otherwise... so i'll just hide in these pretentious smiles and laughs...it's better that way..at least i don't have to handle drama in public. it's nicer if i'll do these shitznetz alone. i don't want to bother anybody. let alone bother him. :(

and as the classes draw near, i don't know what to feel...as of now, i'm just making the most of my summer, so that i'll tug along happy memories just in case i feel alone. oo nga, may roomates nga ako, may mga classmates nga ako..but sometimes, i feel so...so...alone. i don't know. maybe it's just me. :)

anyway, yeah, every night i've been praying for his happiness every night. even though i know that he's itching to get me away from his life. 

kaya nga di na ako pumipilit..kasi masakit yung pinagtatabuyan ka..and it's not in my vocabulary na mag chase lalo na pag alam kong ayaw rin sa akin..cause ako lang din ang kawawa in the long run...and besides, i'm the girl.  and the girls who chase after boys who doesn't like them back look always kawawa ;)

i'll be fine. 

cheers.

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