i'm just going to share to you something that QUENIE MAE MACADAY RAGOT (i hope i got the middle name right this time :)) made which is nakakataba ng heart :

BIGBIG, GLYCERIL

Kaye-Kaye! Alam ko we're not exactly the perfect two, pero thanks for sticking to me. :) Thanks na you're always there when I need you. Thank you, most of all, for being such a good listener. Thanks na nakikinig ka sa kilig, tanga pati ordinary stories ko. Thanks, kasi mahirap man i-imagine, having someone as devoted and sacrificial as you is such a great blessing. I want you to know that I appreciate all the things you did for me: for helping me sa chem nung I got sick, nung wala akong kasama mag-lunch, for everything. Alam mo, kahit ang liit-liit mo, you've got a big heart. I love you.

aww saii..:)) yknow that i'll always be here for you, for all of my friends..and yeah, i believe that we're not exactly the perfect two because i'm bad, you're good. lol. :DDD and, thanks kasi i could share all my stories, my long and boring and korni stories with you knowing that i could fully trust you and hindi mo gud ako pag-isipan ng masama, or something like that ;) and yeah, welcome :D


it feels really good to be appreciated yknow..lalo na when you least expect it. i was not expecting this. :)) and sa addu, she's one of my palanggas :)) i mean, palangga ko man lahat ng aking friends, pero isa sya sa mga closest :) and i am really blessed to be with her, to be with my friends...my friends who always accept me when i come rushing back to their company because there is simply none like them. :)

whenever i read this, it makes me smile to know that someone actually appreciates my effort as a friend and my pagpalangga as a friend :)


when i was at the jeepney one morning, i came across el comedor (spelling?) and i suddenly realized that that was where the interview for the scholarship to japan was held. and i look back at my fourth year highschool life--at how i really, really wanted to join that and see if i'll have a shot at japan. but God has other plans for me and said NO. i lost the opportunity of a lifetime..i never knew if i could make it because i never exerted effort to try. but yknow what? i realized that if i made it, i would not have met the ohwsome people i have already met during my college life...and that's where the magic of God happens.


i now understand that in whatever situation i am in now, no matter how difficult it is, i have to always trust God and just have faith and believe in his divine grace and know that someday, when the right time comes, God will reveal to me the reasons why this happened. because i know that He NEVER makes mistakes and that everything has a reason. and i'd like to believe that this was the reason why God did not let me be in that scholarship... :)


it's amazing how He works. :) i mean, i should've been to san carlos cebu to study (and now, i'm considering that option, i think i want to transfer. davao holds so many memories..SO MANY. and i don't think i want all of those memories.), if i made it to UP dil or UP Manila (idk before that the admissions at different campuses was based on different GPAs. kala ko isa lang. lol. ambisyosa man, i should've put UP min.), i would most certainly study there..and yknow, i NEVER dreamed that i'll study at ateneo de davao university. i never even considered it. i NEVER imagine that i'd be a chemical engineering student for i hate math and i love medical courses. lol. such a funny thing really. how my mind works, how God leads me to do His will. and yknow, i'm really, really amazed at God :)) He really is great and more than that :D

ooh, before i forget, on april 10, we'll be at marbel and roundtrip ang gensan..haha. so yeah, no net for about 1 week :D

and just a few minutes ago, i browsed the website of the university of san carlos cebu..i plan to transfer there. and now, even if it's just a plan, i'm kinda nervous right now. i read the admission policies, requirements for transferees. i don't even know if i'll be accepted there. should i start on may? when will i take the test? :( i'm nervous. right now, all i wanted is to be seas away from ballpen...i mean, as of this moment, i'm happy that i'm in cotabato and ballpen's in davao. i don't know what to do when the classes at addu start and if i'll be enrolled there. i mean, wala man mawala, wala man malungkot if magtransfer ako diba? but why am i really, really nervous? it's not yet approved. i opened the topic last night with mom and she didn't even know i was dead serious. was i dead serious? do i really want to do this? will i not regret this in the near future? 

i don't know! i want to transfer but i'm afraid of regretting my impulse action afterward. but really, i've been familiar to ateneo de davao, given that i'm about to stay there for like, three years already..the school's fine..what's not fine is ballpen and the afterschool and the ohso damn memories...and yeah, the thought that ballpen is just like what, meters away from me? a building away? it drives me nuts.

but i'm not really sure..i mean, of course i'm thinking about the finances, the plane or ship fee, the dorm, the tuition fee. i don't even know if the usc is cheaper or not. plus there's this uncertainty of my classmates. if i'll be able to go there and finally study there, will they be as comforting as my old classmates? will i meet buddies like kristianne, quenny and sai there? will there'll be friends like lorenza who'll accompany me to celeb shows or something? :( will they be like w2 who's accepting and comforting and yknow...finally, will there be a bond like a kakosa bond waiting for me? the uncertainties are endless. endless i tell you. isa pa yang kakosa. the barkada disintegrated already...we don't bond, we don't hang out anymore and it's kinda sad. and yknow, as i think about my future in addu, i always picture myself sad. i don't know why.

so if anyone of you could suggest, please suggest..my mind is exploding right now. i need time to think about this thoroughly...it's a kinda big decision...i don't know...si God na bahala..kung ano ang gusto ni God. :))

hahay. okayz, i have to stop right now..this is a rather long post. XD

cheers :D

.gly.

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