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♘♔ first post for 2009 :)

Saturday, January 10, 2009 @ 9:57 PM

hello! well, it's supposed to be my first post..so..wala lang..i don't want it to be a nonsense, but hey, yknow me, i can't really sometimes fulfill what i want..hehe...and i bet, this one is super long [okay, for my part that is]

magulo ako..xDD

well, what really happened this year? hmm..let's see

jan.1
we went off to da betch baby...:D
but i wasn't able to take a dip on that immaculate [haha..sa shopaholic..xD] water since my hair can't be dipped in a pool or in a sea...waaaaahh..and i was super jealous at them!!! plus the weather's good...super good. i swear, if it rained, i'll really be super duper jealous..good thing it didn't...haha..we rode that bangka thing..haha..trip eh..xDD
my mom was like bawling at me for not looking at the cam..lol
anyway, i just stand at the sand, stare at them, make lots of conversation, eat.eat.eat lechon..hahaha...take a sip of red wine..sit at the sea shore...eat dirty ice cream..hahaha..but i'm happy..
at the afternoon, i slept like oil..haha.
whew..tiring..fun..

jan2..
well, anon bang ginawa ko?
adv.bio and stuff i guess...ahahahaha

jan 3
same as jan2 pero ngayon ko lang tlga na fefeel that hey, it's vacation..hahaha...
and BIRTHDAY NI PAUL..BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY INSAN!!!

well, actually, for the first week of january, i've done a part of projects, and a whole lot of time to rest and sleep [takaw tulog eh..:)]

jan 4
attended the first sunday mass of the year 09..epiphany day..well, it's my dad's birthday soon so he brought home-made pansit and lots of coke to be given to his fellow K of C..well, the priest told us that whoever has birthdays or anniversaries on the month of january, could come at the front and they'll be blessed by the priest..well, i was tempted to go! ahaha..this January 26 will be my first year anniversary since i met sam and shaked his immaculately [shopaholic ulit..haha] soft. soft. and nice.nice hand..:D and he did talk to me! his encouraging words would never be replaced! [okay, stop daydreaming and stop rekindling the past..lol] but i didn't go..haha..baka anong isipin nila..xD di ko naman bday eh..

jan 5
opening of classes..well, i was disappointed that the opening program of the welcome back to school stuff was short..but then, i soon understood that the speaker for the launching of the career month is already there. so they cut it short..sayang..
but then, i was happy because there's this seminar thing [or so i think] wherein schools would introduce themselves and hand us leaflets and stuff and talk.talk.talk.
well, it was okay...
i tried hard not to look at 'him' that day but heck, my head and eyes seem to know just the right spot where i could see him. cause even though there's a crowd, i could spot him..haha..weird..

jan 6
birthday ni awe..but since she didn't say sorry, i was hurt [i think i already forgave her but my pride is too high..]..i already told her all that i felt on what she did to me. yet, she didn't even said a word. THE NERVE! after i asked 'wala ka sabihin?' she just showed me a 'no' by swinging her head.. i was disappointed because i was expecting her to say sorry that she's a crappy cousin to me [that happened on the beach btw]..but hell, no she did not.. well, i'm ready to forgive [in fact, i think i do forgive her now] but i can't forget unless she'll apologize to me..i didn't embarrass her to her 'rumored' crush did i? +shettteeee...i saw him..tsk.tsk. +

jan 7
CSAT day..well, CSAT is pretty much like the NCAE but the latter takes longer time..i was happy with the test..though i think i'll have a fair score..maybe an estimated 80% or so..ahahaha..ambisyosa..
it's also nizhar's birthday BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIZ!
and he treated us to BM...along with mhot, je, el, nen, fathma, and rich..haha..i'm stuffed. really..thanks niz!
it's also ma'am b's bday BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA'AM BAYOG
and of course, my dad's beeday
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA!!
and also, moshie and lambert's special day..well, belated happy birthday to them
aside from that nothing's really important.. ++wah..saw hm again..why isn't he hanging out with jas? i mean, they're in a relationship for pete's sake...i mean, they do have to spend sometime together somehow..well, maybe they're avoiding PDA..well, i really hope the best to both of them. they look good together..well, at least the girl do look good :p

jan 8
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY INSAN XZ!
yup, that's her name..pronounced as 'eks..zee' ahahaha..
normal things happen..[and the scene of me seeing him, is quite normal..for me..it's like a routinary activity..ahaha] plus..we went to the retreat..haha..
since nagpa load p kami ni enna, the jeepney with our classmates in it are full already..so we took the jeepney wherein the ma. goretti varsities and players are occupying..haha...plus ma'am alba and ma'am biarre are there..
well, i was glad since we were not really super masikip...we had a lot of room to move..
ariving there, some briefing and stuff..then we ate..gaddd the food there is great! well, to start, we had a pitch full of iced tea and i think i drank 3 glasses or so..i forgot what we ate..i think it's bread.
then, we got back. and the session started
by 12 pm,

jan 9

kuya tata's birthday..well, nothing exceptional really happened today but i just kulit and away kuya tata more..hahahahaha..wala kasing umaaway sa kanya..hahaha...people are soo nice to him kaya awayin ko muna..ahahaha..i'm mean..
and it's also the last day for retreat..

gaaahhdd..i cried at the retreat...asar!! kasi ba naman...there was a response by the parents, represented by rox's mom..di pa nag speech, she started to have tears in her eyes na..so i softened..hahaha..i don't like the seeing moms cry cause of those atmosphere and stuff like that yknow..it makes me cry easily..so before she could even deliver her response, my jaw tightens and it feels very painful to keep myself from crying, in which i miserably failed to do so since at the start of her speech, a tear or two already dropped. i just diverted my attention to my brother making kulit to him and stuff but i couldn't stop myself from crying

it's like in one of those scenes in the movie the daughter-dad scenes which would really make me cry and i hate myself for being that soft..geez..haha..
then, of course, there was eating and stuff...and to tell you, the food at St. Joseph Retreat House is ah-may-zing! i'm really stuffed. i nearly puke all i ate during lunch time because my small storage of food could no longer accommodate more..hahaha...in short, di na tanggapin ng stomach ko ang food

and while i'm still very full from eating my lunch, they served one last merienda before we all leave..and i ate quite a few so that i wouldn't puke or have an upset tummy..

then, we went back to school using monique's car. mom offered a ride but i refused thinking that my classmates were going to commute. but no, they didn't..i felt a pang of guilt and hoped mom didn't know..xDD
in the car, we were like sardines..hahaha...i was sandwhiched b/w mommy and adrian..haha

went back to school and guess what? wla lang..haha.. some of my muslim classmates were already there..
but i still don't want to come home yet. mom and dad and rj were still at pigcawayan..plus house is hell w/o my parents and my brother. so i decided to stay instead..
the bff's left already and i was left with perkin's friends. well, to say, i wasn't really 'in' and good thing i was unli that time so i could busy myself with the txting stuff.

then, they played some vball and i joined in. [hahaha...feeler..kala mo marunong mag vball..xDDD] they were waiting for perkins to show up. and i was waiting for emi to show up at their practice. i saw mariz arrived at the gym and they continue practicing some more steps..well, they're actually repeating the steps..polishing i think.

after some time, the boys got tired of playing ball and they decided to go home..but i don't want to go home yet. so i decided to stay even if the only people left are the coaches, dancers and me [haha..feeling dancer] and some taekwondo players at the backstage practicing also.

i watched the dancers practice and busied myself with the txting stuff. i don't want to read the shopaholic i borrowed from nen since it's quite dark and i don't want my eyes to be damaged at an early age..ahahaha

few times, i was tempted to take a video of their practice but i convinced myself that i shouldn't since: 1. 'he' is there 2. what would the coaches think of me? 3. tuyaan ako ni hisham, and mariz [thank goodness emi doesn't..aylabyu emi!] 4.feeling 'niya' stalker ako 5. di rin ako sa harapan [sa may riser ako eh] 6.nakakahiya 7. maglaki atay 'niya' 8. 'he'll' only think of me as that bastard girl/stalker/admirer/fool that i once were in 3rd year. 9. he is directly in front of me. well, he is facing the stage, so it's like i could only view his side and if i take a vid, he'll definitely think i'm his stalker/admirer bec. he's the closest to the camera. 10. because HE is there. and well, just because

during breaks, i would come to them and talk to them. i told them emi couldn't come. and i even chased tita ivee just to hug her because she wouldn't want to be hugged for she thinks mabaho na siya..but heck, idc.. :D

then, there's a few talk to mariz at which she still insists 'london' to me and even threatens me..haha..poor little thing. she doesn't know that 'london' is not his codename anymore...hahahahahaha...it's..well, just ask my friends..lol

i got to talk to ivee more..xDD and i always force myself to ignore 'his' presence. anyway, we're not friends and we're not even acquaintances. he knows me, i know him period. but hisham keeps smiling at me..a mocking[is this the right term?] or a tuya smile . hahaha..and i just kept saying 'hisham, alam ko yang smile na yan' and he points at [using his lips] to 'him' na katabi niya lang man din..lol

good thing tita ivee don't know any of this..haha..
i think na siko ko xa nung nagkuha sila ng merienda because i accompanied mariz while i told her something i forgot..i immediately said 'sorry' in the middle of my talk and i hope he got the message..hahaha...

i waited for hisham and mariz to come home para may kasabay ako..hahaha

on the way, nakasabay namin sa jeep si regina [or anet, as i call her].

the mariz and hisham bade goodbye. soon after, nag byebye na rin si leah. well, our eyes met and i said 'babay' and smiled. yey! acquaintance! new acquaintance..haha..so sa dancers, ang hindi ko na lang naging acquaintance ay sina: tungao, oni [but i played at his psp once, when he and ahzel were still 'on'] and 'him' hahahaha...well, for raguia, we spoke once or twice so i guess that could be considered acquaintance..haha..fc ko tlga..lol

after leah bade goodbye, i asked anet na sabay kami sa sikad..haha..and i forgot to tell you, she asked me na i regards si 'arianne mae lalang' to nizhar..hahahaha..it's a long and boring story..xDD

and at the sikad, i learned other secrets..hahahahhaa....

nga pla, may dramahan pa na nangyari sa dancers..ahaha..and oni and 'him' carried and threw hilmie..hahaha..cute tingnan but i think the shock sa foot ni hilmie, masakit..hahaha..and their coach met an 'accident' ahahahahah..

jan.10
nenen's mom's bday..hahaha
well, nothing much happened.except, well, nenen left early bec. it's her mom's bday..
so that left us with just me and niz..we wandered around the gym for quite sometime and met rich and her company.
at around 6 or so, we, rich, niz and me, decided to leave.
when i arrived at the gate, i saw meng there and i realized, gabi na. wala ako kasama. ayaw ko. nauna sina rich and niz and meng and i decided to go downstairs and wait for the dancers, agian [for me] at the gym, gusto ko sa riser para madilim [camouflage] and para mejo low profile..a lot of pm shift students were having their p.e. so mejo magulo ang gym..
i can't argue more with meng, so i followed her and, although labag sa kalooban ko, we sat at the stairs on one side of the stage. well, what can i do? i don't want meng na magtampo sa akin. this time, kumpleto ang dancers. well, i already know that 'he' will look and see if i will stare at him. there's an urge to look at 'him' but i ignored it and simply looked on the floor. i decided that i won't focus on 'him' this time. meng said 'nagatingin siya sa iyo' i asked 'sino?' 'yung crush mo' sabi ni meng. sabi ko na nga ba..hahaha..he is so predictable..pangit..lol..i just shrugged it off and said 'yaan mo na yan' then, meng went on her long, precise, love story and i tried to listen as much as possible..but the image of 'him' and 'his big head' is distracting me. but i kept my focus anyway..because meng is talking, i'm facing her. but at the background, i could see him in my peripheral view and i'm tempted to look at him..but ha! i was successful! :)
and besides, he already has a girl who 'owns' him so, i have to know my limits :D

we went home at nalampasan ako..lol

plus, the moon, was LOVELY!! maka-inlab..and yeah, it makes me want to just stare at it all night...it's beautiful.. :D

january 11

wala ako nakasimba b-u-m-m-e-r!! asar!!
aside from that, i don't think i made progress at all..gaaaassshh..my life is slow-faced and i always lack time because i'm undisciplined

january12

haha..i'll be able to see 'him'! not a big deal..xD
i'm almost late.but hey, i'm not..hahahaha...mahal ako ni Lord..hahahahaha..
at ano ba ang nangyari kahapon? oh yeah, city meet practice..and well, kasali 'siya' hahaha..didn't expect him to practice..i totally forgot..lol..i think his jearsey number is 08..kasi ang sa dearly beloved niya, may significant something ang 08..haha..baka monthsarry nila..well, good luck to them..hahaha

and yeah, returned the book na shopaholic to nenen..hahaha..and the normal stuff..review and all..
and yeah, i passed the USTET.. but i'm waitlisted at medtech..haha..anyway, i've changed my course anyway, so, that doesn't matter..although nanghihinayang na tlga ako..tsk.tsk. :(
upcat results next week i think..i don't want to see..i know i already failed.. :(

january 13

today! yes today..finally, i've already reached today..hahahahaha..whew..
got the letter from ust..and psyched that i passed and all

wierd thing, nireview kami ni ma'am b..hahaha..

and i met sir g at the cemented pathwalk..still didn't pansin him..i'm shy..and afraid that he will snob me and all.. :)

but i'm ready to face him again...hahahahaha..this time, i'll smile and say 'hi sir' if he did snob me, i'll never do that again..hahahahaha..

and exams are next week and i haven't really started on my project yet..and i haven't read any stuff yet so i think i have to go :D

this was, i think, long.. and sorry to bore you :D

toodles!!

still, good luck sa city meet players!!
especially kay *ahem. ahem* i know his dearly beloved is also wishing him good luck..hahahaha

best of Luck and Blessings this Exams Luke!

and [although i already posted a bulleting for this,] Congratulations to all passers of:

ACET [iLuke]
Farshana Datukon
Nizhar Acmad

USTET [iLuke]
Nizhar Acmad
Me!! :D
Hazel Castor
Monique Castro
Emir Ebus
Yasmine Ibay
Nor-aiza Unas
Ajanaira Uden
Nathaniel Wong

may nakalimutan ba ako?

feel free to post a msg at my tagboard kung meron ha?

and congrats to the other passers as well..[esp. fr. NDC]
who could blame me for putting NDC there? i'm from that school anyway..hahaha

and i forgot to tell you i got 50% discount at UIC!

ahahaahahahah..katawa lang ako..but still :)

okay, good mornight everyone..

it's 1:40 am on the 14th of January and i'm not even starting my adv.bio project and haven't reviewed a single bit on marcellin [for marist] and for exams

bye.bye..

♥ you all..

♥ my thunder? ayt? ayt? LOL

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