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Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 8:20 PM

This blog is LONG...

well, nothing's much to be celebrated today though. i found my library id..yipee! and one thing i appreciated was enna's openness to me. i really do. and i felt guilty. now, i'm thinking of ways to make her feel better. though i know, this color of my template won't help. but what can i do? i loved the template. enna, sorry, i'll change it as soon as i'll know how to.

well, hmm.. i watched kung fu kids and discoverd that the cute kid i really have my eyes on was named "benjo"...and i al=so like "uragon" and joshua...

haay...what you're mind can conceive, your body can achieve...

honestly enna, i don't know what to do! i mean, yeah, i understand you cause i totally feel the same way...but not that deep though...the alone thingy, yah..

hmm...don't know what to say...

wala tlga..

okay, i'll stop now..

oh wait, i've got one..

i noticed that ever since i posted the primary photo of me and sam, i got friend requests...

it's a bit painful to realize that people won't really add me because they want to, they add me because of sam. no sam, no add for me.
this world is really cruel and biter and ironic..

speaking of ironic, the world is REALLY ironic..

for once, when i was really head over heels for my ex crush, which i will hide in a codename of jake, i wanted a lot of things to happen.
but now, that i'm not, certain things happen between the two of us that i wished happened when i still had feelings for him..

like in highschool days, his head got really big [both literal and not], he sat few meters in front of me! that's ironic because there's no thrill..

and the silly thing is, i decided to quit liking him because he likes another girl and for the fear that when the girl will agree to be jake's gf, i will be in great misery and be close to suicidal [this is exaggerated]. then i found out that the girl, turned down his offer. in other words, basted. it's so unusual that i gave up my feelings for jake for nothing. he got nothing. he lost the one he loves and the one who used to love [ahem, crush] him.

but still, i was glad i did. because now, he's really boastful. but i don't know, if that's the truth or i just misjudged him. because, we were never really friends or acquaintances so i don't know him that much yet...even though i have no feelings for him now, i don't know why but i still want to be his friend. i still want to know him better as a person. maybe i still like him. but not like like him..he's not my crush anymore..

sorry for the random and out of topic things here. i mean, there's a lot that comes ot my mind. and i sort of just type it.

i still find it kind of creepy to be with me ex crushes. i mean, i don't know. and i still find it creepy to be with the one that is linked to me or anything. except if we were really close. i mean, i find it creepy to be with acquaintances who were linked to me...

like, the moment when i sat by me ex crush on day, i felt like, i don't wanna be there anymore. but i can't the situation won't permit an exit for me. so there i was, beside my ex crush. you might think i find it happy. but i don't. i feel like there's something wrong within my stomach. like it's scrunching or something. i don't understand what i'm feeling at that moment. my ex crush talks to me and almost all of my answers were one word. maybe i was being too cruel or cold towards him but i don't know how to handle the creepiness inside me. masyado akong naiilang. so, he must thought that i was kinda mataray and all. haaayyy...it's difficult to explain..

but about that sam and me picture thing, i was proud that at least someone is jealous of my having my pic with sam. haha..call me boastful, high-proded alien or what. but i was glad somebody felt envy...and that somebody was even dubbed as More beautiful than me..i've got nothing against it. it's just that now, i'm happy that at least i got one advantage. she might be more beautiful than me or whatever but i got a pic of sam! haha..she even said "aynah. si sam!!" haha..i know she's jealous [insert triumphant music here]..i don't care what you think. that's how i feel and i'm not gonna be plastic about it. although i won't show off to everyone. and i won't underestemate that girl anyway. huh...

i know i wrote too much..but i wanted to type and type and type...though i know that the one who will read this will probably stop at this point because he/she got bored..

well, just a thought. i really hate narrow minded peop;e. my temper easily rises when i'm with narrow minded people. and people who has hot approach. like when you ask a question, their voices were like really high and they were like angry at you.

i hate this ironic life. but i know, i choose what i want to be. i want to be happy, so, i'll think of happy things. i'll try to be happy and control my emotions...

i think, this is too long for today..

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